When in Christ, Never say Never

I was reminded the other day that if you are in Christ, meaning, you walk with God and you are fully submitted to God, that you should never say never.

Never say what you are not going to do in terms of, for example, that you are never going to speak to this person or that person ever again because God will override your "never" and tell you exactly what you will do, and He will even tell you exactly when you will do it.

This is what I mean:

So, on June 15th, 2024, I was sitting at the table eating Haagen-Dazs Pistachio ice cream, listening to a sermon, minding my business, and God spoke to me. He said, and you will do this, and this, and this, and that for Providence House (the building that I live in).

God was specific about the things that He told me that I will do for Providence House, but I am not going to share those details at this time. Anyway, I was like, "okay God... I will do it". Lol. God is a whole trip.

Let me just tell you that just a few days ago, I had declared out loud, what I was not going to do for this place (Providence House). I did. In fact, I said exactly this: "Providence House can't get a straw from me."

I was upset at the time, as I have every reason to be, because I live here in this building, where I have lived for almost ten years... In this demonic building and crime-scene apartment (this is another story that you will eventually hear about), where my human rights have been (and still are being) violated, and where I almost died in my apartment due to Providence House wicked and criminal staff allowing people to illegally enter my apartment on many occasions while I was out at work (and Providence House staff, including former staff, have also illegally entered my apartment many times while I was out) to steal things out my apartment and plant things and devices (including surveillance) in my apartment, and at one point (on 12/15/23), my food and beverages were poisoned. And I ingested the poisonous... and I almost died. Like... I really almost died.

How did they do this? How was my apartment illegally entered while I was out at work?

Well because Providence House building (275 Kosciuszko Street, Brooklyn, New York) has a key to all of the tenants apartments, which they keep on site, and Providence House's tacky, unprofessional, demonic, criminal staff (and no staff member is exempt from this description) has access to these keys.

As a result, for the longest time, I was not safe inside of this building/in my apartment, which is supposed to be my home (yeah right).

People have tried to kill me inside of this building/inside of my apartment (BUT GOD!), and my privacy has been more than violated as surveillance cameras are inside of my apartment, where I still currently reside, and I have no privacy at all.

But as I type this, I am reminded by the Holy Spirit that God loves me so much and He has been so, so good to me, and He is still so good to me, and as I give you details of this horrible experience... this nightmare that I am still in, this quote by Pastor Toure Roberts comes to mind:

"Daddy [God] won't let anything happen to me that is not going to ultimately bless me in the end."

And to that I say, amen!

In addition, this Scripture, Romans 8:28, comes to my mind:

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose.

So anyway, watch how this all turns out for me.

My God/My Father is going to prepare a table for me in the presence of my enemies because He has already made them my footstool. Amen! And so, it's coming.

My enemies have set the stage for one of my biggest blessings. You'll see.

So, anyway, now you can understand why I said that Providence House could not get a straw from me. I mean... after all that I have been through while living here. The way my life has been altered. All because of jealousy/ because they are jealousy of me; and, as part of a huge conspiracy against me (that countless others are involved in, including my family, people whom I thought were my friends, my former employer AAPCI, former co-workers, businesses...), they want to (tried to) kill me, in order to steal my business from me (Formula B Solutions Strategic Program Designers & Consulting Services) and profit off of it themselves.

I know that this all sounds bizarre, but it is all very true. I always say that I only wish I was making this up. But I am not.

Meanwhile, there is a message in all of this. A God-message, and it is:

As a Christian fully submitted to God... as a Kingdom worker (I operate for the Kingdom of God), I cannot hold on to offenses because holding on to offenses will keep me (and you) from loving like God. And I have to (and want to) have a heart like Jesus at all times, and in order to do this, I have to be able to manage offenses and manage my feelings at all times, as well as forgive, as often as I need to.

So in terms of me saying what I was not going to do for Providence House, my original plan for Providence House (the tenants and most likely staff as well) was of a blessing; meaning, something nice that I wanted to do, which I wrote down a little bit of my plans and posted it on my Vision Board two and half years ago (in January 2022). I did this at the moment when God spoke to me and gave me my vision/my dream/my business - Formula B Solutions... and He told me that it would be very successful, as well as I would be very successful.

Do you see how in that moment that God told me that, I thought of Providence House? That is how my heart is, and God knows that, and that is why He corrected me the other day and told me what I was going to do (for Providence House). It is because God is using me, and He does not want my heart contaminated. And things like bitterness, resentment, anger, unforgiveness... these are the things that contaminate our hearts.

For this reason, I pray numerous time a day (or often as needed) and ask God to search my heart and remove anything and everything out of it that is not of Him. I really pray this prayer every day, multiple times a day.

So, my friends, do not hold on to offenses, because doing so will keep you from loving like Jesus. But not only that; if you have a contaminated heart, God cannot use you - until you get that right.

Why do you think that when God has something for us, and He wants to prepare us for that which He has called us to, the first thing He works on is our hearts.

I would love to elaborate on this, but instead, I will use this topic for a future blog post.

Be encouraged. God loves you.

Love and peace,

Yolanda Billingslea (Ms. B)

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